anyone named ally is a big bitch.

i'm just kidding ally really isn't a big bitch. so i'm in math class. not doing work :) theres me and ashley rockin'. tomorrow i am going to texel for a science trip. its really going to suck, its supposed to be raining and thundering and cold, and wet and miserable. it should be quite joyous. sike.

there are our awesome videos/pictures. my education=going to school and taking pictures on the macbooks. unfortunately after returning from paris i have a cold it is quite traumatic. i don't feel like being deep and analytical like i usually am in my blogs (haha kidding) 

well im back home blogging. i packed for texel. i feel like i overpacked BIG TIME. lets hope i didn't. and lets also hope that i did not forget anything. lord help us this is going to be HELL. its supposed to be raining/hailing the WHOLE TIME WE ARE THERE. AHHHHHH. its going to be insane. im so sick of hearing my parents yelling at my brother about school. can't he just get it together and just do well in school i just don't get it. im downloading excessive amounts of music. im probs going to go to jail one day for stealing so much music. but those artists are rich enough already, spread the wealth :) my science teacher just texted me. love that lady. i hope i have everything for these horrible three days. and ontop of everything as i have stated before SAT ON SATURDAY. oh man. today i watched gossip girl, one tree hill, how i met your mother, and the hills. its quite sad how my tuesdays consist of 3 hours of television, but i mean i have to feed my addictions.  alright well i better get going and double check everything and make sure that i have enough stuff (oh jeeze) anyways until next time. 

feeling the same way all over again.

autumn. it is by far my favorite season. it makes me think of happy times. football games. coffee. friends. family. so many things that i love. even love itself. i miss american fall because it is so crisp and colorful. being in paris this past weekend made me yearn for an american autumn. paris is so beautiful i'm so glad that i got to go, i just wish i was able to spend more time there but i'm going back in may with lauren so it should be amazing.  my parents were gone this weekend, i had to do laundry all morning. and my no good 16 year old brother won't help. he was out last night while i was sitting on the couch, with a box of tissues, a movie i'd seen, my bunny and blankets dosing off from my nyquil. how lame was i? a senior in high school home on a saturday night alone. but honestly, i don't think that it is that lame.  i enjoy time by myself. even though it should be spent working on school work (bleh) or college applications(save me) i like to just have time to myself.  this morning i woke up and started putzing around the house, doing laundry having some tea watching grey's anatomy.  and i don't mind one bit. i don't mind being home, not on the phone, not on the computer, and not having to answer to anyone. it is quite nice. but i must say i was disappointed to come home to an empty house last night, i wished that my parents would have been here but i guess i have to deal. 

this weekend in paris was not that spectacular. besides being in france, my favorite country second to america, i was bored. volleyball is a snooze. my houser buddy is a snooze, and the bus ride was hell. who wants to be on a bus for 8 hours with a bunch of people that i'm not really friends with? not i. i know my parents are always telling me that i have to learn how to get along with others blah blah blah. but i really don't give a shit. i'm nice to everyone, well i usually am, but why am i going to be friends with people that i don't enjoy spending time with? why am i going to talk to someone that makes me want to rip out my hair, or watch two freshman girls sit there smile at me when they know i'm not going to smile back. don't get me wrong, i'm not a mean person. i just know what i like and what i want. so why should i be forced to succumb to standards and people that i just don't enjoy. some people perceive me as this hanus bitch ( i just watched 1o things i hate about you) but i don't know why. when i'm walking down the hals at school i don't always have a huge smile on my face. so some 13 year old big boobed, braceface, dick sucking freshman thinks i give her dirty looks in the hall way? do i give a shit no not really. i'm not friends with them am i, i don't need to win their affection for anything. it is quite annoying. i'm a senior they should be kissing my feet, which most of them do :) god this blogging is amazing i feel so stress free after wards.

i unfortunately still have homework to do today for my bitch ass ap human geography teacher. she gives us this stuff to read that doesn't even go along with the book. why do i care which country is the happiest i just want to get a 5 on the AP exam and maybe get some college credit. so stupid. and i have to rewrite an essay which i could care less about its english 12. and i have college essays/applications to do AHHHHHH! someone pinch me please. i'm not trying to be stressed out i'm really trying to take it every day at a time. but when i look at this next week i have so much coming up. 2 quizzes tomorrow, an essay due tuesday, three days in texel for damn science. SAT on saturday (lord help me) and studying/making up work i missed wednesday, thursday, and friday. i need some help. and i know that the Lord is the only one who can help me so i need to listen to what he has to say and not freak out. ay yi yi. well i should probably get back to work. its been nice venting. 

don't forget

6:42 am. i'm wide awake, its morning. today i'm heading to paris for volleyball. i suppose i am excited, except for the fact that i have to sit on a bus with a bunch of annoying teens for six hours. and i hope that we win, because i would hate to have had traveled for so long to fail. i was on my old friend's facebook today, her pictures are absolutely breathtaking. i wish i could do something like that, it is quite unfortunate that i can't. my parents went out of town yesterday, i biked back and fourth to my school 3 times yesterday. ugh it was so annoying. i really could care less about volleyball, i'm not digging the team this year, and plus i feel so unattached from them. oh well only a few more weeks and at least i get to miss school for it :) but i have to miss school for our science trip next week, which is going to blow because i really don't like my group. oh well.  

i've been thinking alot about the end of this year lately. and how i don't want to say goodbye to my friends. i think it will be harder, no i know it will be harder saying goodbye to them than it was saying goodbye to people in virginia. its going to be rough. we had our senior trip yesterday and we are probably going to go to crete. i'm pretty stoked for a week of partying with my bests.  i'm pretty much pissed i'm not able to go to amsterdam tonight because of the parentals. but i don't want to disappoint them i want to be able go to go to tex with aud. 

well i should probably get going got to catch that bus to the city of love. au revior. 

falling in love without you.

well this is my first post. i'm so glad that ashley got me into this, i can tell that its going to be amazing. well i've never really blogged before so here goes.  i can't believe i am in my senior year. i can't believe that i will be graduating in less than a year, and moving 3,000 miles away from my family to go to college. it blows my mind that i have come to this point in my life.  i remember being in elementary school thinking "when will it all be over?" but now that it is coming to a close, i don't really want it to.  who will wash my clothes, make my meals, hug me when i have had a bad day, or be there for me.  i know that they will just be an email or a phone call away but after 18 years of being with my family, what is it going to be like to be away from them.  it is already hard being away from friends that have left, or friends that i have had to leave.  i struggled last year big time, but this year has been so much better. i think its because i have been applying myself more.  i feel so cheesin' blogging all of my thoughts on the internet, but oh well. i need an outlet for everything.  today invisible children came to my school (www.invisiblechildren.com) its an amazing organization that helps child soldiers in northern uganda. it is such an eye opener to other parts of the world, that even though i am far away from i can still have an impact on by donating money.  its totally radical.  and tonight at bible study we talked about hearing God's word.  i really need to start setting time aside for the Lord everyday, because without him i am nothing a verse that really stuck out to me today was matthew 6:34 "therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself, each day has enough trouble of its own." i think that i spend too much time worrying about the future that i am not doing what is right for the task at hand.  i think i really need to take a step back and look and all of the things that i have accomplished and things that i am accomplishing. the Lord is so amazing i am so thankful and glad that he is my savior.  well i should probably get going. 

:)