it's that time again.

well it is christmas time once again. don't get me wrong, i do love this time of year. but, the week before the fun starts...is exams. i usually don't get to stressed out about it, and i'm not really this year. i'm just making sure that i study and all that jazz. but honestly. its christmas time and what good things have i done for people this year, have i really been nice? or would i be on santa's bad list.  surprisingly there has been some drama this year but its all subsided, which is good. i've done alot for myself this year, but i don't think that is a bad thing.  not that i have been selfish.  but instead of worrying about other people and what they are doing, thinking, etc. i've kind of just ignored it.  i could care less about 75% of our school i only like my friends and the people that i hang out with.  everyone else is just noise.  that may sound mean but when your almost 18 years old, and you are almost OUT of high school, anyone that gets in your way deserves zero of your time.  man do i wish i was going back to america for christmas. i'm excited to be here and to go to paris with silvia (!)  but i miss everyone.  i try not to think about it too much 'cause i'll just upset myself, but how can i not think about it when this time last year i was with lauren laughing at our retarded family, and with wendy and alicia doing whatever the hell we wanted too.  i just need to push through these next 4 days until FREEDOM. i think it will pay off, no i KNOW it will pay off.  i'm just praying to the Lord for some perseverance this week. well it is off to the shower and then to my spanish exam. wish me luck.